Clearly I do not journal my specific experiences and most personal pain on this online journal, as those are for my closed book journal just for me. But I hope others can benefit from these entries I put out there that are still very personal but are more about things I'm realizing about myself, lessons I'm learning. And I share them in hopes that others who might relate won't feel so alone and might benefit from hearing the personal thoughts of another. The thoughts on this blog are the ones I feel may be useful to others.